SYAFIQAH OMAR

2012

2012-01-01T21:09:00.002+08:00

Wow. It's finally here. Every year, without fail, on the first day of the new year, I will always look back and think about all the things that I should've done instead of just thinking about doing it.

2011 was a great year for me. I learned many new things, both good and bad. But most of all, I grew up. Since I'm gonna turn 18 this year, I hope that many new things await me. I guess I can say that I've been through a lot in 2011, and I hope that I don't give up hope on humanity and that I will live the next 364 days well.

Hah it's been so long since I last updated that I actually don't know what else to blog about.

2011-10-13T01:32:00.001+08:00

Note to self: Don't forget to watch Love Life in Spring 2012.

2011-03-25T00:25:00.000+08:00

I hope you're happy now.

2011-03-19T12:28:00.001+08:00

It's been almost 2 months since I last updated my blog. A lot of things have been happening lately. Mostly things which I regret doing.

2011-01-26T02:26:00.000+08:00

I have been thinking a lot lately. Like as in, A LOT A LOT. And boy, is it affecting my life.

2010-10-24T19:01:00.001+08:00

this is it syafiqah omar. it's now or never!

2010-10-11T15:42:00.001+08:00

17 days left!

2010-10-08T04:02:00.005+08:00

OH MY GOD. I'm so disappointed with my Prelim 2 results. I've only 2 distinctions! TWO!!! I don't know what to feel. I'm so disappointed!!!!!! Anyway. Just reached home from McD. Yeah at 4am cos I was studying and I really didn't wanna go home but I thought I was gonna have diarrhea so I went home. Anw. Tomorrow's sorta the last day of school since we end school early for the next 2 weeks. God.

Has it really been 4 years?

24 days left!

2010-10-01T18:12:00.002+08:00

What I was like after I received my Prelim 2 results;

2010-09-17T21:15:00.000+08:00

She finds color in the darkest places
She finds beauty in the saddest of faces
For such a groovy and headstrong city girl
Could’ve had the world but she’s fallen in love in the worst way
And if you don’t go now then you’ll stay
Cause I’ll never let you leave, never let you breathe
Cause if you’re looking for heaven, baby, it sure as hell ain’t me

2010-09-15T00:17:00.001+08:00

I know someday you'll have a beautiful life
I know you'll be the sun
In somebody else's sky
But why
Why can't it be mine

2010-08-29T00:13:00.000+08:00

"By now, you've perfected that smile, for it hides your insecurities. It hides your anger and your sorrow, your sadness and your envy. The smile hides those tears which you cried last night and that broken heart which refuses to heal. It hides your flaws and regrets. It hides your pain and your fears. Your hate and your jealousy.

The smile hides who you really are."

2010-08-18T01:21:00.002+08:00

Time check: 1.19am

Just ate almost half a block of Cadbury chocolate. Hope it'll last me the whole night. Staying up late almost everyday to revise. Contemplating on whether I should attend school tomorrow/later on cos I feel it's much better to stay at home and revise on my own.

The environment in class isn't that conducive anymore. That's what I feel anyway. Can't believe it's already the 18th of August. That's half a month gone. That's a half a month gone before the O Levels.

Ahhh so little time left. I'm so scared for Prelim 2 ):

2010-08-12T03:29:00.000+08:00

Why don't you hear me when I'm calling out to you?

2010-08-08T15:39:00.002+08:00

Time flies haha I remember when this photo was taken! It was before I stepped down from NCC Girls. Late March, I think?

Anyway, less than 3 months left before the O Levels.

SYAFIQAH OMAR, YOU CAN DO IT. PERSEVERE, BITCH. IT'S NOW OR NEVER.

2010-08-05T17:54:00.002+08:00

OMG I GOT A PEN. NOT JUST ANY PEN.

IT'S THE PEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BRB DYING!

AUGUST.

2010-08-03T21:57:00.001+08:00

OH MY GOD IS IT REALLY AUGUST ALREADY? SHIT SO LITTLE TIME LEFT. BRB IN SEPTEMBER.

2010-07-23T18:26:00.004+08:00

BRB. DYING.

2010-07-18T21:30:00.001+08:00

I AM SO GOD DAMNED FUCKING TIRED OF REVISING FOR MY PRELIMINARY EXAMINATIONS. MY BRAIN IS FRIED. I'M HALF DEAD NOW. WHAT IS THIS I CAN'T EVEN.

JULY.

2010-07-11T01:00:00.002+08:00

Time check: 12.57am.

WOW. It's a Sunday morning? Yes no? I've got religious classes later on and I'll be working after that. Home alone, right now. Extremely extremely bored. You don't even wanna know what I'm wearing right now. Or not wearing haha.

Tons of homework to complete and here I am blogging my time away. Great. Anyway! I'm still deciding on whether I should apply for the DPA Exercise. It's the right choice, I know, but I don't wanna start my poly course early! I mean, seriously.

If I don't apply for it, I'll start poly in April. But if I manage to get through the DPA Exercise, I start poly in January. 3 WHOLE FUCKING MONTHS EARLIER.

And I've still got California to think of. But that's another story cause well.. not everyone knows.

Does anyone still read this shit? Hahaha anyway, see any of you in August!

Time check: 1.00am

2010-06-28T23:30:00.000+08:00

Day 1.

2010-06-12T20:07:00.001+08:00

"I no longer believed in the idea of soul mates, or love at first sight. But I was beginning to believe that a very few times in your life, if you were lucky enough, you might meet someone who was exactly right for you. Not because she was perfect, or because you were, but because your combined flaws were arranged in a way that allowed two separate beings to hinge together."

Time check: 2.14AM

2010-05-17T02:16:00.003+08:00

Okay great so it's Monday. HAHAHA.
Supposedly wanted a "nap" from 5pm to 7pm. But slept all the way till 11.45PM. Saw on Facebook that it was raining heavily and all but I was too tired to care.

Gotta be in school(?) tomorrow at 9.30am for a meeting but there are no lessons tomorrow!!

Let's just hope that Sec 1 Camp 2010 turns out well.

Okay back to Tumblr.

"If you're happy then can already...."

2010-05-07T20:39:00.006+08:00

I'M SORRY THAT I'M SUCH A SELFISH BITCH WHO ONLY CARES ABOUT WHAT PEOPLE THINK ABOUT ME AND THAT I TREAT PEOPLE REALLY BADLY.

I'M SORRY FOR THE TROUBLE THAT I HAVE CAUSED INDIRECTLY TO YOU AND EVERYONE AROUND YOU AND ME.

I'M SORRY THAT WHAT WE HAD IS NOW GONE. IT'S ALL MY FAULT.

AND I'M SORRY FOR POSTING IT HERE BECAUSE SOMEHOW I KNOW YOU'RE GONNA READ THIS BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE THE GUTS TO SAY IT TO YOU.

2010-05-04T18:26:00.001+08:00

Ohh, I know I could say we're through
And tell myself I'm over you
But even if I made a vow
I promise not to miss you now
And try to hide the truth inside
I'd fail cause I, I just can't live a lie

2010-05-04T18:19:00.003+08:00

Hi weightlessimaginations.

Hahaha I'm glad April's over. It was just...amazing? SO let's see. My examination's starting in 3 days and then I'll be preparing for my Mother Tongue O Level Paper.

And my Prelim 1 & Prelim 2. And finally the O Levels.

I feel weird.

2010-05-01T19:00:00.000+08:00

Busy week. Sorry.

2010-04-24T19:32:00.005+08:00

Had the Annual Cross Country run this morning. I was extremely excited because we had to run 4km at 8am on a Saturday morning. Yippee.

Anyway, I got 30th position out of around 400 girls? Not that bad considering the fact that smoking decreases your stamina. Ha.

Anyway, I HAVE GOT A MEGA HUGE BLISTER AT THE BACK OF MY FEET AND IT BURST WHILE I WAS RUNNING.

I almost died.

2010-04-17T21:09:00.003+08:00

Alright I shall write a post since I've got time to burn.
Wow it's already April and I will be handing the council over to the sec 3's soon. It's sad, really. Although I get the same freedom as a normal student now, I still feel like a councillor.

Once the values are instilled in me, it's going to be hard to get it out of me.

How I've held on to this for 2 years of my secondary school life. Wanting to please everyone so the image of the council will constantly be proper.

I'm learning to let go now.

Well, hi. It's a Sunday night.

2010-04-04T20:27:00.006+08:00

FUCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCK.

Okay alright I can't wait for my mom to reach home later on cos she's got my dinner with her. Can you believe she actually went out while I was still asleep? I mean, what if the house was on fire?!?

I would have slept right through it.

Anyway!!!!! IT'S SUNDAY NIGHT@#$%^&* AND THERE'S SCHOOL TOMORROW MORNING. School starts at 7.15am tomorrow and ends at 5.15pm. 5 FUCKING FIFTEEN PM. Need to wake up at 6am tomorrow. THE HORROR!!!!!!

What the fuck I can't even imagine how tired I'm going to feel after school cos there's also PE tmrw. Well the only comforting thing about this is that, I get to bathe during lunch. That's all.

And also, the periods after lunch will be held in air-conditioned rooms. Yippee.

OH AND DID I MENTION THAT I HAVE 5 TESTS TO TAKE?!!?!?

Yeah I only attended 1 day of school out of the 4 last week because I had a high fever. And on the day I went to school, I left pretty much half of my workload under my desk and therefore, it is safe to say that I have not done my homework.

I have no idea why but I have this jumpy feeling in me now!!

2010-03-24T20:58:00.002+08:00

It's amazing how time flies and then I realize that I'm going to take my O Levels this year and that I am graduating and will be entering either into a Junior College or a Polytechnic.

Is it just me or am I feeling that I am going to miss the life I'm leading now although it's not the best?

xoxo

Mundane Saturday.

2010-03-20T13:42:00.002+08:00

It has been a gloomy morning. Raining all day. I'm hungry but I'm not going to eat anything because I am PMS-ing currently and I do not want to gain any weight.

Having tuition later on but it's a school holiday...........................

So far, I have been youtube-ing and I found this video which is pretty awesome.

YAY I AM BACK!!

2010-03-18T17:14:00.004+08:00

ALRIGHT SO YES I AM EXHAUSTED TO THE MAXIMUM AT THE MOMENT. I can't believe I made it through the camp as a Group Leader cos the only time I was once a GL was 2 years back. But then again, that doesn't count cos I was an Assistant GL and a camp exco last year.

OH MAN FUCK THISSSSSSSSSSSS.

I AM THE WORSE EMCEE EVER!!!!

2010-03-15T21:43:00.004+08:00

Okay yes whatever to the previous post. I'm back to blogging to express my feelings in a more wordy post but I still have my wonderful Tumblr because it is awesome beyond the valley of awesomeness. I'm not revealing my Tumblr address here though. If you know my Tumblr address, then good for you.

Alright so I am leaving for a 3 day camp tomorrow. I hope it's gonna be great since it's gonna be one of the last few camps I'll be attending in secondary school life.

Honestly even though I'll be taking the most important exam in my life in 7 months time, I still have no idea what my ambition is.

Yes, I am that confused.

2010-02-10T21:37:00.000+08:00

I've moved someplace else hahaha. I would type out the link here but somehow I feel that my privacy is being violated. Yes no?

2010-01-26T19:46:00.001+08:00

Moved.

It's just a phase you're going through.

2010-01-22T17:45:00.000+08:00

Hahaha okay I did mention that I wouldn't update till February in the previous post right? So just fuck that shit.

Anyway, it's Friiiiiiiiiiiiiiidaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!!!

Love love love love super looooorrrve Fridays!!!! The feeling of stepping out of the school gate knowing that there won't be a need to wake up at 6am the next morning.

Ah.. the excitement!! Hahah but it'll only last for 2 days so yeah whatever.

OH MY GOD, you guys know what!! I just watched The Blind Side!!!!!! Zaf lent her DVD to me and I cried like a sore loser while watching it!!! Do you guys know how touched I felt?!?!?!

Anyway, I still think the movie My Sister's Keeper is the most touching movie evar!!! I cried like a mega crybaby + sore loser!! I think I can like, watch the movie 10 times and still find it sad.

I'm such a failure for a 16 year old.

OH WAIT AHAHAHAHA CAN WATCH NC16 MOVIES ALREADY!!! Not that I want to but yeah.

^_^

Oh and you know whaaaaaaat. I waited in school until 2pm just now to meet my Computer Studies teacher cos he wanted to meet us to discuss about our O Level Coursework, but the wait was in vain!!!

DAMN.

And oh yeah, Coursework for Computer Studies started last week!!! I am freaking scared!!!!!

I'm not ready for the O Levels yet!!!

And I don't wanna graduate so soon!!!! ):

I'm gonna miss everyone in my class!!!

I mean, where else in the world can you find 38 people who are exactly like the other 38 in my class? And where else in the world can you find a class that is so bonded yet so far apart at the same time?

Oh man, I am going to miss you guys. I bet things won't be the same anymore after we graduate from Junyuan. Yeah, I guess we could keep in touch online and through texts but the spark of the friendship won't be there anymore.

Nothing really lasts forever huh.

STANDING PEN.

2010-01-20T15:40:00.002+08:00

Whoa, has it been a week already?

Hahaha I can't believe I still bother to update this. I think this will be the last post until hmm let's see February? Hahaha anyway!!!!!!!!!

Paramore Live In Singapore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I GOT THE TICKETS ALREADY!!!!!!!!!!! For my ticket seat, hahah just refer to the title of this post above.

^_^

Omg do you guys know how excited I am?!?!?! I've been waiting for them to come to Singapore ever since their first album, All We Know Is Falling, was released!!!!

OMG THE EXCITEMENT!!!!

Now I can see them LIVE, instead of just seeing them on my desktop wallpaper.

DO YOU KNOW HOW EXCITED I AM? OMG EXCITED TTM.

Hahaha anyway at the moment, I am still working at Macdonald's. Not sure whether I should work this Friday cos I really hate it when last minute things happen.

Though it's only been the 3rd week of school, I still feel like it's been months since school started.

xoxo

You're the direction I follow.

2010-01-13T21:15:00.000+08:00

Unless you've lived my life, unless you've felt what I've felt, unless you've suffered like how I did, you don't deserve a right to judge me, bitch.

I've never really liked you and I don't actually see a point in being in a friendship with you.

It's pure luck you've got so many of your kind around you supporting you.

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Dear Diary,

I have absolutely no idea why I even bother to update this. I'm gonna delete this soon hahaha. Anyway I left my Math homework under my table ergh so pissed off with myself.

School has been a bitch lately, so is everyone.

There're tests every week and there'll be a Math test tomorrow morning at 7.15am.

Sigh, it's only been the 2nd week of 2010 but seriously, 2011, HURRY UP!

Hahaha I'm extremely tired cos I feel that school has been draining the energy out of me and running 2 rounds around the school can still cause my thighs & calfs to ache like !@#$% even after 2 days!

WEEKENDS, I NEED YOU!!!!

Wake up in a waste land.

2010-01-11T21:06:00.000+08:00

4 kg, that's it.

I just wanna lose 4kg and then I will start my life anew. I'm not sure how I'm gonna do it but I will/shall/must. I've not eaten since this morning, it's 5 minutes past 9 now and I don't feel hungry at all.

I'll do whatever it takes to lose weight even if it means I need to skip breakfast, lunch or dinner. I've done this before so I'm going to do this one last time.

Even if it means I need to give up what I've loved all this while. Even if it means I've gotta walk around feeling a weird feeling in my stomach. Even if it means I'll have to spend hours in the toilet to puke everything I've eaten out.

I am going to make through this alive. I'm not gonna give up like I did before.

I will lose weight.

My Big Fat Eating Disorder.

2010-01-11T20:52:00.004+08:00

Was surfing the net and found this at my brother's girlfriend's tumblr. Really cool.

I have an eating disorder. Not Bulimia or Anorexia but EDNOS. This means that i alternate between puking and starving. I also have rules. Bread has to be eaten in even numbers. Cake is evil. Carbohydrates are secretly plotting against me. Diet Coke is the elixir of youth and beauty.

My EDNOS is 19 years old. It started out as Anorexia when i was 15. Then i progressed to Bulimia, otherwise known to some as a failed anorexic. My weight fluctuates between slightly overweight, slightly underweight and somewhere in between. Which proves that my methods of losing weight aren’t that efficient, but this is not about logic. This is not about doing the right things like eating less and exercising more.

This is not about being sensible or healthy or a shining example of mental health. This is not about Jamie Oliver and his organic pig testicles. This is not about looking good on the beach and wanting to be a supermodel. This is not about wanting the cute guy in the coffee shop to beg for your telephone number. This is not about sliding a pair of skinny jeans over your hip-bones and laughing all the way to the check-out till.

This is not about wanting attention until complete strangers force feed you Black Forest Gateaux and siphon double cream into your skinny latte.It is not about deliberately pissing off the nurses by hiding your peas under your fork and stashing butter in the bed pans. It is not about starving for all the children in Africa. It is not about reading the magazines and pining for the Body Mass Index of Paris Hilton’s pet Chihuahua. This is not a conspiracy created by the Patriarchal system to oppress women.

This is about having the self-esteem of a gnat’s arse. This is the polite way of committing suicide. This is about having no life because it’s impossible to order a bowl of dry cereal in a restaurant and ask them to hold the raisins. This is about weighing pasta, cereal, raisins and anything that passes your lips, including toothpaste. This is about secrets and lies and shame. This is about not wanting to admit that you need to eat. That you deserve to live.

This is about being scared. This is about being terrified. Of everything.

This is about control. This is about sex. This is about putting relationships on hold until your thighs don’t meet in the middle and by then you have no libido anyway. This is about hiding under layers of clothing that are mostly black. This is about “Please don’t look at me and cover all the mirrors with black crepe.” This is about avoiding the camera, even at your sister’s wedding. This is about intense self hatred.

This is about needing so much that you can’t stand it. This is about having emotions that bubble up and spill out all over the carpet and stink up the whole house. This is about having too many choices and too much pressure and isn’t it easier just to keep it simple and obsess about the amount of calories in a small cantaloupe? Instead of making big scary choices that might crush you to a pulp?

This is about wanting to be safe. This is about wanting to curl up in a nutshell like Thumbelina and ignore the big bad world that’s too noisy and dangerous and can’t be trusted. This is about not trusting anyone and relying on food (or lack of) to give you an all enveloping comfort blanket when the medication bloats you up like a corpse in a river.

This is about really crappy coping methods. This is about making a choice that will quite possibly kill you. This is about failed relationships, waiting lists, devastated families, waiting lists, becoming vegetarian, becoming vegan, becoming lactose intolerant, developing a wheat allergy and more waiting lists.

This is about infertility, rotten teeth, and hollow bones. This is about cardiac arrest in a shopping centre. This is about being sick. This is about not being sick enough. This is about finally being sick enough for a bed in a unit until you drop down dead and you get a mention in the local paper for being such a model student.

This is not about food.

Let's blind their eyes.

2010-01-10T01:21:00.001+08:00

Dear Diary,

I'm supposed to be asleep right now but heck, I shall just update this. Okay so you know what!!!!! I worked in the kitchen today and then when I showed my manager my fingernails that were pink for absolutely no reason why, she said

"OH MY GOD, you are so skinny!"

The reason why I capitalised the first three words cos my manager really exaggerated it okay.

Anyway, my work buddy described the new cap that we're all gonna be wearing for CNY and oh man, my spirits to work on CNY have dampened.

It's round and is black and red.

Kimak if not for the 8.40 per hour pay, you can forget about me working.

Okay alright I shall end it here since I've got religious classes tomorrow, wait I meant later, and I need to be up in 7 hours and then I'll be working after my religious classes.

xoxo.

2010-01-08T13:10:00.000+08:00

Hi, I want to be stick-thin.

2010-01-07T20:56:00.003+08:00

Dear Diary,

Today was quite an exciting day until the later part of it. I actually don't understand what really happened so I shall type it out cos I know a lot of people want to know my side of the story. Hahaha and btw, I ended the lesson in the shittiest way evar!!

So here it is.

Was having Malay lessons and apparently, my Malay teacher thought that when I said "So boring!" to my partner, she thought I was referring to her style of teaching when padahal I was referring to the way I spent my December holidays.

THE HORROR!

And apparently she was unhappy with it and reprimanded me in front of the whole class!! Of course I ain't happy about it yo!

I AM NOT IN THE WRONG OK FOR SURE DON'T BELIEVE ASK AROUND.

Naw, I'm not pissed. I'm just mothafucking pissed!!!!

Erm yeh, I'm not in the wrong + you misunderstood me + you scolded me in front of the whole class while pointing to me + you hurt my ego.

Yes, I'm egoistic.

Now live with it.

So yeah I don't care if I'm the Vice President of the Student Council because I know that if I'm not in the wrong, I should stand up for myself.

Yes no?

If I don't stand up for myself, who will?

Besides, I have nothing against you. Yes, I will give you the respect you deserve as a teacher only if you treat me as your student. But nuh-uh.

So yeah I don't care if I'm gonna get into trouble as I'm typing this but seriously, I wasn't in the wrong. So yeah whatever it is, your advice went into my right ear and out my left ear.

So deal with it.

ANYWAY NEWS FLASH,

YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.

It's already Thursday night!!!!!!!!!

I'm so god damn excited the weekend is here!!!!!!

Everybody knows where we're going.

2010-01-06T20:53:00.002+08:00

Hi y'all y'all!!!!

Hahaha okay firstly, the main reason why I am updating weightlessimaginations at 8.48pm is because school starts at 7.15am everyday for me. And there'll be a class test tomorrow at 7.15am plus school ends at 5.45pm.

I ain't complaining cos I know the school is doing this for our own benefit so all I'm gonna say is, FML.

I'm glad I moved 2 seats forward cos I can definitely see better haha and I'm gonna bring food into class tomorrow!!! There is absolutely no way for me to stay up and listen to all the lessons. How depressing can tomorrow get, Social Studies is the first period.

History teacher = Social Studies teacher.

Anyway, once tomorrow is over, I shall look forward to Friday cos then the first week of school is over!!!!!!

I'm still learning how to love school. Blame it on the 2 month term break and plus, it feels as if school has started for months and months and months when it's only been 3 days.

And oh, I have been sleeping early lately!! I'm already knocked out by 10pm cos this waking up at 6am thing is seriously taking it's toll on me and climbing up 4 stories is tiring ttm.

Once again, I shall not complain.

xoxo

How much longer will it take to cure this.

2010-01-04T20:33:00.000+08:00

Dear Diary,

What a year 2010 has been hahaha, it's weird cos it's only been a few days since the start of a new year. Today, I walked to school as a senior hahaha and it feels really weird.

Oh and my class is now on the 4th floor and the walls along the corridor is white and the wall outside my classroom is blue and my classroom's wall is green. You know when you walk along the corridor, you can like literally feel like you're on the clouds cos of the wall colours and cos you're on the highest floor in the school hahaha.

Anyway, my point is, it just feels different. I think I have lost all interest in school but I am praying, PRAYING I TELL YOU, that my interest will come back to me.

Okay so yeah, pretty much that's it. Oh and school starts at 7.15am everyday instead of 8.15am on Tuesdays & Thursdays. FML.

Err yeah and uhm I'm gonna negotiate with my form teacher to let me sit at the front row cos if I'm gonna sit at the back row, I might as well be absent cos I'll most probably sleep or eat or just daydream which obviously I can't afford to.

Wait is anyone even reading this?

Oh and I'll be working on Chinese New Year(CNY) cos I'm like the only Malay working in the afternoon shift!! Hahaha I bet they'll need me more than, fuck I don't know what to say.

Plus, CNY will be for 3 DAYS!!! Double pay also!!! DOUBLE PAY FOR 3 DAYS!!!!! I bet they'll make me work till midnight cos the number of Malays working there is countable.

I wouldn't mind working midnight shift also ahahaha as long as money is rolling in.

Okay alright, until then I shall do what I do best which is this.

Fuck that made no sense.

xoxo

Cause you're my wonderwall.

2010-01-02T01:41:00.000+08:00

Ergh I'm exhasuted!!

I stood for almost 9 hours straight!!!!

Yeah it's true Zelia, what a way to spend the first day of 2010. I spent the first half of my first day of 2010 asleep and the other half on my feet serving customers, both crappy and nice. Erm so yeah I was supposed to work till 10pm just now, I mean yesterday, but the manager needed people so yeah I extended till 12am.

Actually the latest I can stay is till 11pm cos I'm still under 16 but heck I did anyway. Plus it's double pay!!!!!!

Anyway, I'm guessing I'll have to quit this job soon? Yes no?

O Levels is something really really really important for me and uhm, the first paper starts in about 6 months? Or somewhere there? I'll most probably be working weekends or whenever they need people or during public holidays until April?

So maybe, just maybe, I'll work after my O Levels and then yeah, that's it for me cos I'll be starting my poly life soon ahahaha.

I bet it's gonna be hard to say goodbye to all of the crew & managers.

What to do, good things have to come to an end anyway.

Sigh.

My sweet joy always remember me.

2010-01-01T02:04:00.000+08:00

Dear diary,

Since today marks the first day of 2010, I shall list out the things I hope to achieve by the end of this year. I can't say this is my New Year Resolution cos usually, I don't actually achieve my NYR's hahaha.

1) Lose weight.

- Hahaha I've been wanting to do this since the start of 2009 so I shall procrastinate no more!

2) Change my attitude towards everything in my life.

- Throughout 2009, I believe that my attitude have hurt some people, in a way or another, and I truly, deeply apologise for that.

3) Trust people.

- 2010 will be a year where huge changes will be taking place. I'll be letting go of my Student Council to my juniors. What a difference this is going to make ):

4) Study hard.

- You guessed it, O Levels.

Oh man, 2009 was truly a year where so many unexpected things happened. It was full of awkward, happy, hair tearing, nerve wrecking and tear jerking moments.

No doubt, everyone in my life did play a part in making 2009 a memorable one.

Whoa so 2010 is in front of me now.

A lot of things will be happening for me.

Why don't I have the courage to face it?

I will survive.

2009-12-31T12:08:00.001+08:00

I am in a state of shock.

I just saw my timetable for next year and it's just so unbelievable. Lessons officially start at 7.45am everyday and lessons end at 5.45pm on Mondays(Talk about Monday blues) & Thursdays.

I mean yeah we're taking our O Levels next year but seriously...?

Hahaha there'll also be different teachers teaching 4E2 next year and plus, we have a new form teacher and I shall not comment on this because I never know who might be reading this.

And oh, my register number is 8 instead of 9 now haha.

Erm yeah basically that's it.

I've got work later on sigh.

I think I'm gonna quit my job soon.

I'll leave when the wind blows.

2009-12-29T12:00:00.000+08:00

Apparently, I had no idea that there's English homework until yesterday. And the reason why I've not been updating is cos I just don't feel like it hahaha.

I find it unbelievable that this week is the last week of the 2 month holiday. I mean, yeah it's been 2 months but seriously..?

Okay whatever it is, I must, MUST I TELL YOU, complete my homework + tuition homework on Thursday & Friday since I'm working later on and I'll be helping out for the Sec one orientation tomorrow and it'll be for the whollleee day.

It's already noon and I just reached home from NCC training. Whoa, the weather is just extremely horrible. I'm feeling reaaally giddy and my head is spinning and I'm just so hungry.

Okay alright, I shall not bore any of you anymore.

xoxo

You should've tried harder.

2009-12-27T05:12:00.002+08:00

How come it doesn't feel like it's 5:12am? Hahaha my head feels a little heavy but I don't feel like sleeping.

I'M JUST SOOOOOOOOOOOOO BORED.

Some day you'll know just what to do.

2009-12-27T04:48:00.003+08:00

Okay don't ask me why I'm online at 4:45am!!!!

I'M SO EXCITED PARAMORE'S COMING.

I actually wanted to sleep at like 12 plus, but there was a movie so I watched it then after the movie, I watched another movie which ended at 4am. I could've sworn my eyes were realllllyyy close to being closed but somehow, I'm wide awake now.

Absolutely no idea.

I feel so tempted to eat the yoghurt in the fridge but I shall save it for later on cos I don't see a point in eating the yoghurt now and going to sleep and starving myself later on in the afternoon.

I'd rather starve myself now and go to sleep and eat the yoghurt later on in the afternoon.

And they ask me why I'm redundant.

Uhm anyway, is it just me or does tomorrow mark the last week of the 2 month holiday? And uhm, is it just me or am I taking my O Levels next year?

Please tell me it's just me.

I'm gonna make you mine at least for tonight.

2009-12-27T04:45:00.002+08:00

Now, what's another word for excited + mega excited + incredibly awesome?

See you on 7th March, Hayley.

Your arms like towers, tower over me.

2009-12-25T12:05:00.000+08:00

No photos cos I'm blogging with the E63. Haha I'm working later on but I don't mind cos it's DOUBLE PAY!!! (Hourly pay x2) HAHAHA.

Oh and and I'm gonna be home alone later on after work.. Not that I'm not used to it but ahhh never mind.

I still cannot believe school is starting soon. Has it really been 2 months?

Come with me tonight, we could make the night last forever.

2009-12-24T00:10:00.006+08:00

Ahahaha I'm still missing my buddy!! Anyway, it has been such a weird week. Had the sec one registration yesterday in school and you should've seen the line for the sale of uniform!!!!

LONGER THAN THE TOTO SHOP.

Hahaha I wonder why parents rush to buy their kids' uniform cos the uniform shop ain't gonna disappear into thin air!! I saw my neighbour yesterday(she lives 2 units away), showed her around and she went straight home after her son's registration cos she couldn't be bothered to queue up ahahaha.

OH AND YEAH, I'M WORKING TODAY & TOMORROW.

Worked the 8 hour shift yesterday and I was way beyond exhausted cos I stayed till 11 till the midnight crew arrived and I was the only PM crew there hahaha. I wanna work the midnight shift but then again, I don't want to cos customers can get really cranky even when it's only 8pm.

I don't mind the manager asking me to work 7, 8 or 9 or 10 hour shifts as long $$ is rolling in.

^_^

Oh and ahahaha a lot of people read my blog ahahaha. So glad you guys enjoy reading but then again, why aren't you guys leaving a comment. Come, don't shy shy.

Oh the song 4ever by The Veronica's is seriously addictive and it's stuck in my head. And have I mentioned how hot they are?!?!

I wouldn't mind turning lesbian if women as hot as them throw themselves at me hahaha.

Come on baby we ain’t gonna live 4ever
Let me show you all the things that we could do~

Anyway, I'm working later on, I bet I'll work the 8 hour shift since today's the Eve of Christmas and there will be a lotttttttttt of people later on. I'm gonna work on Chinese New Year & Valentine's Day too.

Oh that reminds me. Gotta ask for 3 days off on 29th, 30th and 31st December cos there'll be the sec one registration which will take up the whollllllle day.

ANYWAY NEWS FLASH.

Sec One camp next year will be on 1st, 2nd and 3rd June 2010 ahahaha, felt weird to type 2010 and not 2009.

AND GUESS WHAT. My Malay O Level paper will be on the day before.

Ergh I suddenly find it depressing to be 16 ):

AH WHAT THE FUCK, NC16 MOVIES, HERE I COME.

Semua tentang kita.

2009-12-21T15:34:00.003+08:00

I realize I really miss the camp a lot.

Although it's been a few days since the camp ended, I'm still stuck in the camp mood and moving on is really hard cos I've never been to a camp that made me cry so bad when it ended and I've never wanted to spend more time with people I've only known for 5 days.

It's hard hahaha everyone there was so nice and the environment there and when you think back about what you did for the 5 days there, you just want more. Why can't we have an exchange programme? ):

I am missing you Bruneians like hell hahaha but what to do it's all over. The camp's over but our friendship is still as strong as ever but hell, everyone knows that nothing lasts forever. I'm just glad that all of us managed to foster a friendship and a bond so strong that 3/4 of the campers & all the trainers cried when you Bruneians left.

Camps suck cos they have the ability to make you want more and to make you want to have more of what you did for the past few days. I'm listening to the Semua Tentang Kita song and I'm on the verge of tears now hahaha.

I miss waking up to see the bunk door open cos the Bruneians in my group are going for their prayers. I miss bathing in the toilet which only has curtains for doors. I miss jumping on my top bunk. I miss looking at all of you. I miss feeling all the sincerity & humbleness.

I miss repeating myself twice in order for the Bruneians to understand what I'm talking about. I miss eating a lot. I miss the canteen. I miss walking up to the bunk. I miss looking at all of you (LOL twice). I miss reminding my bunk mates to switch the lights off when they leave the bunk. I miss talking & singing randomly in the bunk.

I miss you Bruneians.

xoxo

Tears of joy.

2009-12-21T15:13:00.001+08:00

Rough idea of what the Singapore Brunei Leadership Adventure Camp was all about.

Singapore-Brunei Leadership Adventure Camp

2009-12-19T10:55:00.005+08:00

Okay alright I shall post about the camp since I have nothing to do and I should post before I forget what happened during the camp hahaha.

Day 1.

Cabbed to the campsite at LAC cos the bus didn't come to our school. Anyway, there were only 6 of us from Junyuan. Once we reached there, we went to the canteen and the Bruneians started taking photos of us. It was awkward but I liked it haha. Then after putting out bags at the dorm which is absolutely comfortable like a chalet, we had mass ice breaking games which didn't actually turn out so well because well, I don't know. Then after that, we went to the MOE campsite at Changi.

We had a telematch there which was funny cos we had to spin 10 rounds and then run hahaha. Super hilarious, I tell you. Oh and my group won!!!! And then we had BBQ for dinner which was fun cos the group bonded. YAY. Went back to the campsite at LAC and lights out was around 11pm.

Day 2.

Woke up at 7 cos we had to assemble at 7.55am. HAHAHA BEST RIGHT. After breakfast, we did high elements which was abseiling, zip line and the rope challenge or is it challenge rope. Err basically, we just have to jump off a platform and to grab the rope hahaha that's all. But it's really scary cos if you look down then most probably you won't jump off the plank haha.

Then we had lunch and went for the nature walk at Hortpark which was extremely exhausting but the Bruneians loved it. HAHAHA then we went back to the campsite to bathe and after dinner, we went for the Midnight Express!!!!

Hahaha basically, we had to stay awake from 7pm to 4am while going to all the places of interest in Singapore!!! Firstly, we took a bus to Lau Pa Sat then to Clarke Quay and after that we had a cruise on the Singapore River hahaha. Then we went to have supper at a coffee shop and I had 3 pratas D:

After that we went to Mustafa to shop haha but the Bruneians shopped the most then we went to Jalan Kayu and then to Jurong Hill and the last place was Jurong Fishery Port. After that we headed back to LAC and showered because all of us smelled like fish and we finally slept around 5am? Or was it 5.30am?

Oh and we even shopped at CityLink and we were all clad in t shirts and shorts!!! Hahaha it was like we just had a pyjamas party! HAHAHA.

Day 3.

After about 5 hours of sleep, we woke up around 10am and showered then we proceeded to Kallang River for dragonboating!!!! Hahah all of us were really excited. Oh and we had packet food for lunch which sucked big time cause the meals we had at LAC were all like a buffet.

But it rained halfway while we were dragonboating but it was fun to dragonboat in the rain. Then after that we headed back to LAC to bathe and we planned for the campfire item which was really interesting ah haha.

Lights out was around 11pm I guess?

Day 4.

Woke up 7am hahaha and had the Downtown Rendezvous haha it was extremely awesome!!! We went to Chinatown & Little India. We had to take public transport to get to the 2 places!!! The Bruneians were extremely excited like I was! Hahaha then at Chinatown we went to the Buddha Relic Temple but couldn't do a full tour in it cause some of us were wearing shorts, including me.

After that we went to URA and had a tour there also.

Then we had lunch at Tekka Centre and went to Little India and did a tour there. Pretty interesting. Then we went back to our campsite and showered and had the campfire which was not really big but the atmosphere was really awesome!!!!

It was in the hall and then we had a grand buffet for dinner hahaha oh and the Bruneians danced really well. Then some of the campers had to dance blindfolded on stage and the last person on stage dancing was Naj, a Bruneian from my group and it was hilarious cos the way he danced had the WHOLE HALL laughing their asses off cos he danced like syiok sendiri like that.

Then the Bruneians & their teachers performed a song for us and it was a real tear jerking moment cause then everyone realized that they had to part the next day. I cried, like really badly.

We then had a group talk which caused the girls in our group to cry really badly. ): The photographer took a photo of me crying which he showed to me the next day. UNGLAM TTM. Lights out was at 12am? But I couldn't sleep haha so I dragged Ayu & Vivian to have instant noodles with me at 2am.

We shared some lame jokes which caused me to get high and to laugh really loudly. Haha got shooed out of the canteen and had to eat someplace else. Then we had to sleep at 2.30am ):

Day 5.

Woke up at 6am and didn't bathe cause we had assemble at 6.25 hahah then we had breakfast and proceeded to Changi Airport Terminal 2 to send the Bruneians off ): Most of us cried in the bus.

Then while they checked in, we did evaluation forms, hahaha this is so redundant, I swear.

After they checked in, we had about 45 mins or was it an hour to spend with the Bruneians before they left for good. We were supposed to be happy but we just couldn't. We took photos and chatted and just spent time with one another cause we knew that we would never get to do the same thing ever again.

I CRIED LIKE A CRYBABY NON STOP.

We walked them to the departure hall and we cried even more. I COULDN'T BEAR TO SEE THEM LEAVE.

Then after all the sad things that happened, we went to McDonald's for breakfast which was Mr Hyrul's treat heheh THANK YOU.

Then after that, went back home and slept from 1pm to 9pm. HAHAHA.

Overall, it was a really great camp because I learned a lot from everyone, seriously. I miss the Bruneians because they were just so different, they were so humble and nice and polite and responsible and FUN TO BE WITH.

Thank you everyone for the memorable 5 days we spent together. Oh and thank you Akasha, for being the best trainer and for making the camp one of the best ever.

It was just so fun to be with the Bruneians and now that I'm back home, I regret having the thought of not wanting to go cos if I didn't go, I would definitely miss out on the opportunity to know more non-Singaporeans better hahaha.

I can't actually describe the feeling of being in the camp cos you will have to be there to understand what the shit I'm talking about hahaha and oh, I MISS ALL OF YOU. Especially my buddy, Zawanah from Brunei.

Oh and I wanna do a presentation next year in school hahaha I WANT!!!

Paramore Live In Singapore!

2009-12-18T21:24:00.001+08:00

I'VE GOT GOOD NEWS hahaha Paramore's coming to Singapore on 7th March 2010!!! LIKE FINALLY I'VE BEEN WAITING SINCE FOREVER. I only found out today since I was in camp yesterday!!!!

I am so going even if my mom won't allow me because chances are they won't be coming back to Singapore ever and this is my only chance and I don't care if my mom won't give me money or if I have to use my money or if I have to starve to save money for the concert or if I have to turn anorexic to starve because I will because I want to go because I am going.

K EXCITED TTM.

Singapore-Brunei Leadership Adventure Camp

2009-12-18T12:24:00.001+08:00

How was it?

Haha, it was 10 times better than Sec One camp 2007 and Sec One camp 2008 and Sec One camp 2009 and Sec 2 camp @Sarimbun and NCC camp and OBS and all the camps I've been to combined.

Read, combined.

You treat me just like another stranger.

2009-12-14T00:55:00.002+08:00

Urgh it's already 12:52am and I have not packed!!!

I've got to leave the house in 6 hours!! Hahaha and in the 6 hours, I'll have to sleep & pack, I'll most probably dump whatever I need or think will be essential into the bag.

Uhm whatever will happen, will happen so I'm not gonna bother hahaha.

Oh and here's a quick one for my best friend, Nur Aisyah Bte Gulam Hussain!!!

If you're reading this, welcome back to Singapore!! Or yay, you're coming back to Singapore!!!! Terribly sorry I can't pick you up tomorrow or on Tuesday cause I would most probably be doing some high element stuff or will be on an expedition at LAC.

ANYWAY, HOME SWEET HOME!! Hahaha k see you soon :D

Okay alright I shall pack soooooooooooooooon.

Where the skies are blue.

2009-12-13T20:31:00.000+08:00

It has been a wonderful Sunday, so far I spent the afternoon sleeping or wasting my time away so I'm not complaining. Hmm I like it better when I was home alone cause it's just so.. different, you know? Not that I don't like company or I'm depressed or psycho but change is good? Yes no?

Anyway, I'm off for a camp tomorrow as you all know but I've not packed! Hahaha I should really start packing cause I cannot forget anything. CANNOT.

I'll miss all of you but I'll miss working at Mcdonald's the most hahaha. Money is rolling in!!!! Anyway we're gonna go dragon boating during the camp. Oh and have I mentioned that the students from Brunei will also be there?

Wait I think I did.

I'm just hoping that I get grouped with some hyper people and not those who just kind of die out from the camp. Get what I mean? Alright never mind if you don't.

I want to make new friends in the camp hahaha and I hope the dormitories we're gonna sleep in at Labrador Adventure Camp(?) will be nice and not haunted cause then that would just suck.

Big time.

Oh and yes I think I should call my mom to let her know that I'm all out of cat food for Kiki. Hahah and I have been begging(emphasise on the word begging) her to buy for me Pearl Milk Tea hahaha I brought it to tuition yesterday hoping that I would not get caught but heck, I did.

My tuition teacher saw the plastic bag and smiled a wide smile and said "Later throw it outside ah". Hahahaha such weird personality. But I like it.

Oh man I'm typing nonsense, is anyone even reading this?

Okay I really hope that the camp is going to be a great one since this is the first time, FIRST TIME I TELL YOU, my school is participating in it. I have no idea what to expect since no senior from Junyuan has ever been to this camp. Yes no?

Hahaha I just ate fried rice but I am fullllllllllllllllllllllll.

But I want chocolate oh and my period came last Sunday and it ended on Friday so I'll be clean and healthy and blood-free during the camp so no worries for me. YAY ME.

AHAHAHA alright I'll post again later on. I'm gonna pack now.

xoxo

Here's one for you.

2009-12-13T02:27:00.002+08:00

_|_

I DON'T REGRET NOT GOING FOR THE BBQ ASSHOLE, SO STOP ASKING.

TSK TSK TSK.

2009-12-13T01:55:00.001+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA AT THIS ONE NO KIDDING!

2009-12-13T01:46:00.001+08:00

SWEET DREAMS MY FRIEND.

2009-12-13T01:37:00.001+08:00

Picture of the day.

2009-12-13T01:15:00.001+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHHAHAHAHAA.

2009-12-13T00:58:00.001+08:00

Life truly has its ups and downs.

Homecoming.

2009-12-12T02:14:00.000+08:00

2.15am already.

I give up, I'm going to bed nowwwwwww!

Come with me tonight.

2009-12-12T01:28:00.002+08:00

First things first, this shall be a long post hahaha it's for my own pleasure cause I don't care if you're reading this anyway.

AWW, yesterday was the last day(since it's already Saturday now haha) I'm working with McDonald's through the WEP. ): How depressing! On the bright side, I'm a part-timer there now though.

OH AND ON THE WAY BACK HOME IN THE BUS JUST NOW, I MEAN YESTERDAY, I was standing in the bus since 34 is always packed and then I noticed a woman looking a little bit like Lady Gaga but with rabbit teeth sitting at the 4 seats in front of the bus looking at me.

So I was like feeling insecure ah cause I was like thinking "apasal dengan dekni ni tengok tengok aku".

Then I looked at her then she saw me looking at her then we stared into each other's eyes for like 3 SECONDS SIOL.

Then I looked away ah cause I didn't know how I should react. Then like after a while, we stared at each other again -__- Then we both laughed!!! OMG PLEASE TELL ME THERE'S SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME.

Oh and this lady standing next to me laughed with me too cause I was leaning on the cushion thingy you know in the bus and then the road was shaky then the bus shaked then it hit my backbone then I ahh forget it.

Oh and I managed to survive an 8 hour shift WOOHOO YAY ME.

But I feel sad cause I won't be working next week.

I'M GOING AWAY FOR A CAMP SO NO ONE WILL BE UPDATING THIS.

Going for the Singapore Brunei Leadership Camp on MOnday!! OMG 5 FREAKING DAYS. And I've not packed! I don't feel like packing, seriously. I feel lazy...........

OH AND YA I THINK MY PAY HAS ARRIVED.

$_$

Anyway yesterday was so much fun!!!! SO SAD I'M NOT WORKING NEXT WEEK.

I wouldn't mind wearing the yellow uniform as long as money is rolling in. ):

OH and I finally saw the midnight crew people cause I worked till 11.30 today! Hahaha they look so different! So new!

OH ANYWAY SOMETHING RANDOM.

A conversation between the manager and me.

Manager: Err, Syarfika(-_-), you know how to make ice cream already ah?

Me: Ya ya!! *Looking excited

Cause I thought she wanted me to make one!! I LOVE MAKING ICE CREAM, I SWEAR!!
Manager: Sundae and Mcfrurry(HAHAHA) also right?

Me: Ya ya!!!! *Looking even more excited

Manager: Okay okay no need to get so excited! I asking you only.

OMG I WANTED TO LOL SO BADLY SIA.

Anyway I think my mom will fucking kill me if she smells my fingers now cause it smells like cigarettes -_-

OKAY YAH TOLD YOU THIS IS GONNA BE A LONG ONE.

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOAH.

2009-12-11T02:17:00.003+08:00

2:17am and I am still online doing what? I have no idea.

I'm supposed to be up in about 11 hours and I don't think that's enough sleep for a 15 year old but I don't care.

Bad Romance.

2009-12-11T01:46:00.001+08:00

I like this better than the original hahaha.

I'm content with loneliness.

2009-12-11T00:51:00.003+08:00

HAHAHAHAHA HOLY CRAP.

I just went down to check the mailbox(Yes at 12.50am -_-) and guess what!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm getting the Edusave Eagles Awards!!!!! HAHAHAHA yay so happy for me cause I'm getting the Edusave Scholarship too!

Eagles Award = $200
and

Edusave Scholarship = $400 or $650

^_^

Hahaha I'm so bored I swear no kidding, my mom will only be home on Saturday or Sunday!

HOME ALONE FOR A WEEK!

Show me how you do that trick.

2009-12-11T00:38:00.002+08:00

I have absolutely no idea why I am here hahaha oh I'm supposed to private my blog just now but seeing that my hits are rising, I shall let all you anon readers continue reading. Haha redundant -_-

Oh & my right index finger hurts a lotzzzz and it's hard for me to type oh and my brother went fishing -_- HAHAHAHA I was on the way up and I took the lift so I saw him walking past the lift cos he used the stairs but I saw him but he didn't see me.

Ah you're only understand if you've been to block 708 before.

Anyway I wanted to scare him so I shouted his name and I MANAGED to make him and his friend shout

"AAAAAAAAAAAH" and turn back instantaneously hahaha. Should've recorded that, haha epic fail sia their faces!!!

Am I awesome or what! Scaring the crap out of two 20 year olds? Or is it 21?

Perangai! Padahal my brother's birthday was 2 days ago!

Blow the candles out.

2009-12-10T12:13:00.000+08:00

I can't believe it's already 12pm and half of my Thursday is gone haha. The other half will be spent working. What a sad life I have. -_-

Wait is it Wednesday or Thursday today?!

Hahaha whatever anyway I don't like taking bus no. 34 to work!! It's always packed and the only time I get a seat is when 1/4 of the passengers alight at a bus stop which is 3 bus stops away from the bus stop I boarded from. And also the bus stop is far please. I've to walk past a car park and 1 block to finally get to the bus stop!

And if I miss the bus, I'll have to wait for another 15-20 mins for another one.

Cissssssssssssssssssssssss.

I can take bus no.27 also! Hahaha but the damn bus stop is too far away! LIKE REALLY FAR. I've to walk past a car park and 3 more blocks to finally get to the bloody bus stop.

Now, readers, that is one walk I will never want to walk. Why does bus no. 293 not go to the airport?!?! The bus stop is directly outside my house, all I gotta do is just jaywalk.

^_^

Hahahaha anyway I hope today will be a great day at work since the @#$% asshole is on the same shift as I am.

Talk about lucky! Hahaha happy Thursday everyone!

K that was random.

In the dark it's getting hard to breathe.

2009-12-10T00:54:00.001+08:00

Hahaha what a day! Oh I shall tell you guys something!

A Japanese woman ordered 7 Big Mac meals just now at my counter and of course, her English isn't the type of English that I would understand.

English + Japanese = EPIC FAIL.

Anyway after 1 solid minute of miscommunication, she finally blew her top! I mean it's not my fucking fault she wants "7 Beeg Maks(Big macs), 1 co-ler(cola -_-) and 1 tee(tea)".

So I was wondering what the other 5 fucking drinks would be and finally when my manager took over my place, she fucking said this in her fucking stupid accent to me in front of my manager.

"You talk too softly, your English I kay-not understand. What chu are talllking about I kay-not hear. You must trrry too speak loudd-der."

Okay that's part of what she said. There's more but I can't remember cause I was just cursing at her in my heart lol.

Like they always say,

The customer is always right.

Right, my ass.

Oh and hahahahahahahaahah one more story, this is shit funny!!!

An ang moh lady came and she ordered Soda water. Initially she wanted Ice Lemon tea but changed it to soda. I didn't know there was such a thing so I called my manager. If you guys have been following me on twitter, my manager's voice is one hell of a kind. In a bad way, I mean.

Alright I'll just type out the conversation that happened between them.

M for manager, AML for ang moh lady lol.

M: No no no such thing as shoda water.
AML: There is. I bought it before.

M: That one is last time now no more sho-da water.

AML: But I..

*Manager cuts her off....

M: No no no shoda water only ser-pe-right(sprite).

And the AML got really pissed, I could see it from her facial expression hahaha so she just rolled her eyes and walked off hahahahaha! It's about time yo! I was getting pissed with my manager too, I mean, she pops out of nowhere and starts nagging and her voice is hella annoying and she's about the same height as me so whenever she stands beside me, her mouth is directly at my ear.

So you can roughly guess how I feel. Oh yeah also, I was signaling to a man to come over to my counter and I stretched my hand a wee bit higher into the air as usual and he looked to where I was pointing to and his girlfriend looked at where he was looking and the three of us laughed for a solid 25 seconds. Or so.

Ah love these type of customers and fuck all those who want 7 Beeg Maks. No such thing yo! Hahaha and also there are nice customers so I ain't complaining!

Hahahaha I think I shall private this blog soon so goodbye time to go home cincao to all those whom I shall not invite hahah just kidding. Leave me a message or something or an email or write on my facebook so I can invite you then again maybe not. Just kidding.

Me is friendly haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

Working from 3pm to 10pm tomorrow so those going for the NCC BBQ, HAVE FUNNNNNNNNN!

Some secrets are worth dying for.

2009-12-09T11:57:00.003+08:00

Will you?

Youth is wasted on the young.

2009-12-09T01:02:00.002+08:00

I have absolutely no idea why I'm posting. I feel sad. Yes sad and not to mention, lonely. I don't know how to describe how I'm feeling right now. I can't say I'm depressed because I'm not. I'm just sad, you know, down. Like I feel this heavy burden on my shoulders but I don't know why I'm feeling it.

I'M SO INSECURE!

Anyway I shall be giving the NCC bbq a miss since 1) No one texted me about it, 2) I don't feel welcomed and 3) I will be working.

Hahaha I bet work is the only thing that keeps my mind off all these things.

Here's a shout out to someone I know who is reading this, hang in there, girl.

I hope you find your freedom.

2009-12-09T00:07:00.003+08:00

OMG I can't believe I'm so easily influenced. I can't believe I actually did what I did how could I be so stupid?!?!

WHY CAN'T YOU DIFFERENTIATE BETWEEN RIGHT AND WRONG SYAFIQAH WHY!!!!!

Anyway, let's be optimistic shall we.

I have been home alone, let's leave the fact that my brother is also home aside for the time being. And my family will only return home on Friday!!!!!!

I shall let you all know something. Hahaha it's a secret but I can't tell you yet cause if I do tell you, then you, you who are reading this will tell your friend and your friend will tell your friend's friend and your friend's friend will tell your friend's friend's friend.

And eventually someone of a higher authority will find out, and that is something I am not willing to risk for.

Anyway I just reached home haha actually I reached home an hour ago. OH and I just found out, there's 10 managers working at the place I am. Only different shifts so I actually see different managers at different timings. There's this one manager whom every crew doesn't like but I like her a lot!!!!! I think she's nice lol nice. What an alien word to use hahaha.

And her voice is really low!!!!! HAHAHA.

I was heading for the freezer to get some fries and she suddenly popped OUT OF NOWHERE and she actually held my arm and asked me whether the back door is closed.

!@#$% I almost jumped out of my skin and almost dropped the fucking box of fries!!!!!!!!

Oh ya btw before I forget,

http://weightlessimaginations.blogspot.com/ will be privated soon hahahah only I will have the authority/permission to read it.

Should I private it?

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

And we just go in circles.

2009-12-07T01:00:00.008+08:00

Firstly,

THE CONNECTION IS LIKE _|_

And there's no picture today because I'm lazy to upload because I don't wanna switch the light on to find the cable to plug my memory stick into because I want to type in the dark because I'm cool like that.

ANYWAY TODAY I WENT TO PLAY WITH A STRAY CAT AND THIS LADY SAT BESIDE ME & THE KITTY CAT AND WE TALKED FOR A SOLID HALF AN HOUR AND THERE WASN'T ANY AWKWARD SILENCE MOMENTS.

Hahahahaha I felt like typing in capital because I feel like typing in capital. Sialah, I have council later on at 9am and this bloody red fairy visited me this morning and I am working later on from 3pm to 10pm.

If it wasn't for the food, I would've quitted long ago. Hahahaha just kidding. I'm so freaking hungry now and the last thing I ate was Pocky which has 230 calories which doesn't make me full because it's just flavoured sticks, I mean fattening flavoured sticks.

OH I went to the flea market at Changi Aiport T3 just now!! IT WAS AWESOME.

My brother is half useless all he does is sleep and he doesn't cook for me and I can't be bothered to cook for myself either. I want to eat _|_

Anyway I shall go and visit the kitty cat later on after work, I shall name it Mimi hahahahhahaha I have no life I swear.

I've never been happier.

2009-12-06T00:53:00.000+08:00

Dear Diary,

Today was seriously boring. Hahahaha I have a feeling this entry is going to be a long one but I don't give a shit cause I'm doing this to burn time hahaha. Anyway my family left for Perak this morning. YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW EXCITED I AM!!! HAHAHA.

Oh and yes, I am home alone. But I have my kitty cat with me!!! Anyway just now I went down to feed the cats below. They are so adorable!!! There was this one cat which looks exactly like mine, but then again, all cats look the same!

Anyway it was loitering around the void deck of a block 3 blocks away from mine so I played with it and a lot of people were asking me whether it was my cat and obviously I said no because it isn't my cat but the thing that amazes me the most is that people love cats.

Aww so touching.

Anyway I made 3 new cat friends today and 2 real life human friends! Hahaha and I fed 4 stray cats, wait stray doesn't sound nice, I shall call them homeless cats hahaha no difference!!!

Oh and my Big brother left the house just now, wait I mean, yesterday since it's already 12.44am, for some Standard Chartered event. He's going to be on duty or something. He's a paramedic. Hahaha anyway I want to be a firefighter.

Then again I want to be an accountant. But I want to be a talk show host. But I want to be a reporter. I want to be a musician.

Ugh so many choices in life hahaha what to be what to be. Anyway I have no idea why I am being so random now hahaha I've got religious classes tomorrow! Not sure whether I'm going but I shall go anyway.

Pahala.

Hahaha I was supposed to make truffles just now but the lazy monster caught up with me therefore I spent hours doing absolutely nothing and just wasting my time away. Hmm makes me wonder whether I should've followed my mom to Perak. Hahaha anyway I am not sure what time I start work on Monday!!

I FORGOT TO CHECK MY SCHEDULE LAH SIOL.

I keep forgetting!!!!!! Urgh never mind anyway I am getting $400 from the Edusave Scholarship!!!! Hahaha it's either that or $650, I'm guessing it's only $400. Anyway I think I should sleep now but I don't feel sleepy ):

Should I watch television?!?!

SOMEONE ENTERTAIN ME.

Okay anyway I shall browse through random people's facebook and laugh at the way they smile in their photos HAHAHAHAHA. Yes I know it's mean but it's entertaining!!!!

It's not a dream anymore.

2009-12-04T23:19:00.003+08:00

OMG YOU KNOW WHAT!!!!!!

I actually played Hotel 626! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA AND I AM SHIT SCARED RIGHT NOW LIKE OHMYGOD!!!!!!

Okay honestly I had no idea what Hotel 626 was until Zaf told me that she saw me on that website -_- I wanted to know whether it was true so I actually signed up as a member and then I had to go through a game!! I had to switch the lights off and HOLY SHIT, I had to take 9 pictures of a dark toilet!!!!

And as usual at the last click of my mouse, a blonde haired ghost popped out and of course I screamed and my mom who was sleeping came out and she was furious because she was sleeping and I woke her up with my scream. Okay that is one long sentence.

Hahaha I shall try playing that game again with my Big Brother :D

Descending, I'm spinning.

2009-12-03T00:13:00.000+08:00

Yay I am extremely excited and I shall tell you why!!!!!

1) I got the Edusave Scholarship which is only awarded to the top 10% of students!!! (Extremely excited for it!!!!!!)

2) McDonald's offered me a job as their crew and I accepted it!!!! (I'm currently only attached to them through WEP!)

3) I'll be in charge of the Blind Men's Trail for next year's Sec One camp!!!!!

Hahahahahaha 2009 was a blessing in disguise after all :D

The endlessness that you fear.

2009-12-02T13:10:00.002+08:00

Here's a quick one.

Anyone interested to attend next year's Secondary One camp? The camp excos are currently writing down names of those who are interested to go. If you are, please pass your name to me or any other camp excos.

Do take note that you are not necessarily allowed to go for the camp once you submit your name to us because we would still have to analyze through it.

Okay done.

There's no need to apologize.

2009-12-01T13:34:00.007+08:00

The main reason why I have not been updating weightlessimaginations is because I am managing my time between meetings and work.

And I have to leave for work sooooooooooooooooon. So I'll try to update again later on at night.

Oh & before I forget, here's a shout out to Nur Farah Ain bte Mohd Idros, because I know you're reading this.

HAPPY 14TH BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!

xoxo

When I hit the bottom.

2009-11-27T21:43:00.001+08:00

Hahahaha I think I have a crush on my other manager!!!!

Feel it with your heart.

2009-11-26T10:02:00.002+08:00

Don't wanna hear your sad songs.

2009-11-25T15:47:00.007+08:00

On a day like this, I am thankful that there is such a thing called instant noodles hahaha.

Anyway I am feeling extremely useless because I'm just waiting for the day to go by. I can't believe it's already 4.01pm and so far, I have only watched television and used Facebook and blogged and the whole cycle is repeated again and again and again.

And again.

Anyway my mom is going on a holiday on the 5th-10th December!!!! And I'm not going cause I'll be working! I can't possibly apply for leave cause I'll be going for a leadership camp the week after that(14-18). And I've already applied for leave for the camp hahaha.

I'm damn hungry! I feel like ordering Mac but I'm craving for their breakfast! I am sick, SICK I TELL YOU, of their lunch! And oh after work yesterday I ate the Grilled Chicken Teppanyakki Burger with the shaker fries and uhm, it tasted weird. Hahaha for me, at least.

I have no idea why it takes forever for me to upload an image to this post.

Breathe out, so I can breathe you in.

2009-11-25T12:26:00.005+08:00

Yay, I'm gonna watch the last episode of Flash Forward later on on the Nbox. Yes I know, there're 2 'on's in the previous sentence. Sounds better that way haha.

Bloody hell(HAHAHAHHA), I figured I should just stay home and rot and eat potato chips and drink coffee and watch television and browse through random people's Facebook account and wait until night falls then I shall watch iCarly.

Note to self: Get a life asap.

Anyway I can't believe I'm working on Friday!!! Hari Raya Haji lehhhhhhhh. _|_

Oh yes yes yes I'm glad I'm working at the airport!!! Hahah so many ang mohs are there plus they are super friendly and hot and pretty and I feel so ugly in my uniform! Anyway yesterday I saw this American family and guess what the girl called her maid?

Ms Emily.

Haha I overheard her asking the maid aka Ms Emily where to throw the cup she was holding. At least Ms Emily sounds better than bibik or auntie or kakak. Hahah oh anyway, my manager at McDonald's doesn't call me by my name! She calls me 'adek'.

-_____________________-

The only person who calls me that is my Big Brother hahaha and he only calls me that to irritate me! Oh ya before I forget, I hope my mother brings me to see the kambings tomorrow night hahaha before they get slaughtered.

Mmm bekkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.

I wanna watch Bananas In Pyjamas!!!!!! I miss being a kid ): I want to take the school bus to school also ): Why do secondary schools not offer school buses?! Hahah I should really stop typing -_-

Anyway I really miss Peer Support! ): And all the friends I made there and of course, Skywalkers.

No one is as lucky as us.

2009-11-25T10:46:00.002+08:00

I have absolutely no idea, NO IDEA, I TELL YOU(!!!!!!!!!!!!!!), why I woke up at 10am today!!!!

K bye going back to sleep.

Give me attention, I need it now.

2009-11-24T22:42:00.006+08:00

Hahaha I can't believe I'm eating Oreos at almost 11pm! Hmm, let's see what I've done so far today.

OH, I'm going to blog about something that's been bugging me tomorrow(hopefully).

AND OH, I'm updating from Nokia E63 so therefore there's no picture above this paragraph's paragraph haha.

Yay, it's my off day tomorrow. Should I go to the gym or just sleep the day through?

hmmmmmmmmmm.

I'll follow you until you love me.

2009-11-24T08:38:00.004+08:00

YAY, first day of work was awesome!!! Tho it felt weird at first wearing a cap around, I got used to it. I had no other choice anyway haha.

Oh Zelia, you're coming back today!!!!! Hahaha unfortunately I can't pick you up cause the time that your flight will be arriving is the same time I start work. ):

OH YEAH BEFORE I FORGET, my hits are rising!!! Hahaha it's been only what, 2 days or is it 3 since I put the counter and 100++ people have been reading it?

Okay yeah I know it's very little compared to catchthecall but I am so touched that people are willing to spend at least 240 seconds of the 86400 seconds they have in a day to read weightlessimaginations.

Hahaha I should really stop acting dramatic.

Move while you're watching me.

2009-11-23T11:49:00.006+08:00

WOO, the filming was awesome! Hahaha seriously, it's really cool and I won't tell you what it is haha just wait for it next year alright! All you have to know that it's a tour around the school which is awesomely awesome.

Okay alright, I'm going to catch up with the Z monster before I get to work. Can't believe so many cartoons are showing on television and I'm not able to watch it. ):

K I'll catch up with y'all later on at night!

Let's play a love game.

2009-11-23T07:05:00.003+08:00

Good Morning World!

Hahahah although I slept at 2am last night, I have absolutely no idea why I woke up at 6.30am today! I'M SO GAY HAHAHAHA. As in happy gay.

Just drank coffee! Coffee gives me the runs but I like it(the coffee not having the runs gundu) because it's the only thing that keeps me awake throughout the day. Yours truly is really disappointed but then again, I pinned my hopes a tad too high.

So who's to blame?!?!

Tap on my window, knock on my door.

2009-11-22T20:10:00.003+08:00

I want to migrate!!!!!

OHMYGOD, can you believe it! It's Sunday night already! Weekends have to be more than 2 days please. Who in the world can have ample rest in just 2 days?! WHO!

Hahaha I should stop over-reacting lest I hyperventilate, wait I've never hyperventilated. Never have, don't intend to anyway.

Oh yeh there's council tomorrow morning at 8.30am! We're gonna do some filming thing, I have absolutely no idea what it's about. All I know is that I am working at 3pm tomorrow and I hope that I can make it on time. Plus I'm extremely lazy to go to the airport. Somebody drive me there please.

Ergh gotta iron my school + work uniform later on(I need a maid seriously) and where is my council badge! That badge always goes missing every weekend. It's either I left in in my skirt, it's still pinned onto my blouse or it is just somewhere in the house.

LAZY TO SEARCH FOR IT!!!!

I'm so hungry you know! My mom went grocery shopping for this month already but she didn't buy me the spaghetti sauce I told her to. Sadded hahahahaha. I just ate toast and oreos and drank coffee! Hahaha I should be able to have a hard time sleeping later on.

K the end.

OH EM GEE.

2009-11-21T20:08:00.002+08:00

I think my minah attitude is on after doing that shake thing during the open house in school just now hahahaha.

Baby are you down down down down downnnnnn.

2009-11-21T19:50:00.002+08:00

I AM FREAKING BORED. HAHAHAHA I have absolutely no form of entertainment except the Bollywood songs the people in the multi purpose hall are blasting from their party. They're my neighbours by the way but they didn't invite me to their party.

Isn't smiling to them when we walk past each other friendly enough? :'( Hahahha just kidding ah dude! I'll most probably make a fool of myself dancing if I am invited anyway.

CAN YOU BELIEVE I AM NOT GOING OVERSEAS?!?!?! So heartbreaking lah sial. (Chey minah!)

Hahah I miss my big brother can!!! He left for some Y.O.G thing at the stadium, medic or something. He didn't even say goodbye to me.

EH BRADER, WHEN WANT TO PAY ME BACK MY 60DOLLARS?! I will not halalkan cause 60 bucks is a lot leh!!!!

Better pay back ah if not I'll spray the "O$P$" sign on your bedroom door. Hahaha padahal we live under the same roof. Oh yeh before I forget to tell all you sad assholes(biadap eh aku), I ask my mom to kirim for me Long John Silvers cause I'm craving for the fries!

OH YEAH I MISS ZELIA HAHAHA K SO RANDOM. AND OMG, WHAT TYPE OF LANGUAGE DID I JUST BLOG IN?! HAHAHAHA.

There's a fine line between love and hate.

2009-11-21T19:21:00.002+08:00

YAY, FINALLY THE OPEN HOUSE IS OVER. Hahaha I don't know why I'm excited because of it. I just am. Oh yes yes yes, I'm starting work on Monday hahaha. Those of you kpo enough to want to know where I'm working, I'm working at Changi Airport's Budget Terminal's Macdonald's.

Yes, this is the time for you to go "Ohhh, there".

Oh ya, I think people actually read my blog, I don't know who and I don't care either cause as long as you're not sending me hate msgs/comments, I'm fine with it.

BESIDES, this is the space where I type out what I feel like typing and I don't really care if what I type hurts anyone cause if you're affected by it, you shouldn't be reading this anyway. I'm not gonna private this because then it'll be troublesome.

Whatever, it's Saturday today! HAHAHA gotta love weekendsxzxzzxz!

Caught in a bad romance.

2009-11-20T20:56:00.001+08:00

I have no idea why I even bother to update this hahaha padahal I just start this blog. Omg, NEED INSPIRATION. EH I actually don't mind turning bulimic to lose weight since I don't have enough discipline to diet to lose weight. Need money to buy diet pills and they cost a bomb anyway. I wouldn't mind buying it if my mom has a money tree or smth. ALSO, I can NEVER get over my cravings. I have to satisfy my cravings and I just did, ergh, feel like throwing up now.

I will definitely do it once I feel like it and I will not stop until I am satisfied.

Besides, poking your finger down your throat after pigging out doesn't sound difficult. Right? Haha shall try that soon and make myself addicted and I want to be skinny and I want to lose weight and I don't want people to stare at my fats ):

I WOULD KILL TO LOSE 10KG. I SWEAR.

Let's have some fun this beat is sick.

2009-11-20T17:07:00.003+08:00

What a day it has been for me today. I think I shall post about it on my lj(I never know who might be reading this blog) and keep it locked though I wouldn't mind giving you my account name & password to read it if you feel that you are kaypoh enough.

Moving on, the last part of today was awesome! Hahah supported the volleyball girls in their friendly match in the hall and I met Mun too! Muahaha I love this best friend of mine! Currently deciding whether I should attend my school's Open House tomorrow. Don't feel the need to since I'm not wanted there anyway.

Revenge is sweet, k bye.